What's on Your Mind??

Remember the time when FB asked you "What's on your mind ?" and you wanted to scream.... "My mind is being bombarded with a zillion of ZERO correlated thoughts from a machine gun cross cannon... Do you have a problem with that?"..... You had so much to say.. but you just couldn't express it... And when you did express it... somehow the words you used.. the person you expressed it to.. the place.. the time.. did not seem so right.. that even after you ripped your heart open for everybody to see.. hear.. feel... it did not make much of a ripple! And then you were like "WTF...ppl understand Sadda Haq... Kolaveri.. et.al but not me...!!!" Yeah.. I know you remember... and all  you could sing is.."Jo bhi mai kehne chahu.. barbaad kare.. alfaaz mere...ohh yayayayaa..." 

For quite sometime now... FB has been mocking me...every time I log on to it... It asks... "What's on your mind? " (which btw I have now learnt to ignore...)  It then strangely picks all those people on FB who are either studying abroad.. or are on exotic vacations.. or getting engaged / married/ pregnant... and paste them on my wall..!! Ufff...!! And all I can do is to... hit the "like" button.. CTRL+C and CTRL+V stuff like "Supa Like... :)" "Congratulationss...!! :) " "M sooooo Happpppppyyyyy 4 uuuuu <3 " .... AAAhhhh phhuuuyyeeeee !!! All that is happening in my life is...  I wake up... I shit in the pot... I get ready for the day.. People shit on me.. around me...I clean self... I eat.. I pray..I sleep..!! and yeah occasionally I f*** people... and people f*** me..!!! (which btw is not so great... trust me.. the F word is overrated..!!)

If you are reading this.. that means you too surely have a well protective roof on your head.. an all you can eat plate of food.. and u can afford warm clothes... of course all this would mean you have a comfortable inflow of "funds". But is it all that matters in life??What about Maslow's Self Actualization??? In spite of the reading scores of monk-y books and e-mails... in spite of having an OK to strong family and friends back up... most of us say WTF yaar??? WHY this Kolaveri Di...??? and feel like a complete Xenon in the crowd...sometime or the other.. or even worse... forever.!

The most successful keep saying... live each day.. each moment..with people you love.. doing what you love... but they never admit if its a late realization (apparently all greats say they missed out on "living life" in a bid to "make life")... If its a late realization... does that mean OXFORD needs to revisit the definition of SUCCESS??  And if its ain't so... then do they(great ppl) fear competition?? Now I am confused.. and I am sure I got you all confused too... and probably saying it aloud... "God....Guess you need some counselling Girl !! "... Hell no..!!

In the past few months I learnt the following cycle of life...

1. WTF! Stage
2. "I gotta do something about it" Stage
3.  "Hell I am better off than others" Stage
4.  "I am happy with what I have" Stage... and wham!....its all history revisited from there...

From where.. whom did I learn..? Don't ask... how long did it take me to learn that... don't ask... but just know I did learn....

But then me being me.... All I want is this twisted toxic certain uncertainty to end... I want stuff to be "crystal clear" ... I want People to see other people as people.... I want the one firing thoughts into my head to slow down... I want my heart to buck up and limit itself to pumping blood... I want to be able to do what I love with people I love... I want to show FB my mid finger and say.. "Now u know what's on my mind !"