What's on Your Mind??

Remember the time when FB asked you "What's on your mind ?" and you wanted to scream.... "My mind is being bombarded with a zillion of ZERO correlated thoughts from a machine gun cross cannon... Do you have a problem with that?"..... You had so much to say.. but you just couldn't express it... And when you did express it... somehow the words you used.. the person you expressed it to.. the place.. the time.. did not seem so right.. that even after you ripped your heart open for everybody to see.. hear.. feel... it did not make much of a ripple! And then you were like "WTF...ppl understand Sadda Haq... Kolaveri.. et.al but not me...!!!" Yeah.. I know you remember... and all  you could sing is.."Jo bhi mai kehne chahu.. barbaad kare.. alfaaz mere...ohh yayayayaa..." 

For quite sometime now... FB has been mocking me...every time I log on to it... It asks... "What's on your mind? " (which btw I have now learnt to ignore...)  It then strangely picks all those people on FB who are either studying abroad.. or are on exotic vacations.. or getting engaged / married/ pregnant... and paste them on my wall..!! Ufff...!! And all I can do is to... hit the "like" button.. CTRL+C and CTRL+V stuff like "Supa Like... :)" "Congratulationss...!! :) " "M sooooo Happpppppyyyyy 4 uuuuu <3 " .... AAAhhhh phhuuuyyeeeee !!! All that is happening in my life is...  I wake up... I shit in the pot... I get ready for the day.. People shit on me.. around me...I clean self... I eat.. I pray..I sleep..!! and yeah occasionally I f*** people... and people f*** me..!!! (which btw is not so great... trust me.. the F word is overrated..!!)

If you are reading this.. that means you too surely have a well protective roof on your head.. an all you can eat plate of food.. and u can afford warm clothes... of course all this would mean you have a comfortable inflow of "funds". But is it all that matters in life??What about Maslow's Self Actualization??? In spite of the reading scores of monk-y books and e-mails... in spite of having an OK to strong family and friends back up... most of us say WTF yaar??? WHY this Kolaveri Di...??? and feel like a complete Xenon in the crowd...sometime or the other.. or even worse... forever.!

The most successful keep saying... live each day.. each moment..with people you love.. doing what you love... but they never admit if its a late realization (apparently all greats say they missed out on "living life" in a bid to "make life")... If its a late realization... does that mean OXFORD needs to revisit the definition of SUCCESS??  And if its ain't so... then do they(great ppl) fear competition?? Now I am confused.. and I am sure I got you all confused too... and probably saying it aloud... "God....Guess you need some counselling Girl !! "... Hell no..!!

In the past few months I learnt the following cycle of life...

1. WTF! Stage
2. "I gotta do something about it" Stage
3.  "Hell I am better off than others" Stage
4.  "I am happy with what I have" Stage... and wham!....its all history revisited from there...

From where.. whom did I learn..? Don't ask... how long did it take me to learn that... don't ask... but just know I did learn....

But then me being me.... All I want is this twisted toxic certain uncertainty to end... I want stuff to be "crystal clear" ... I want People to see other people as people.... I want the one firing thoughts into my head to slow down... I want my heart to buck up and limit itself to pumping blood... I want to be able to do what I love with people I love... I want to show FB my mid finger and say.. "Now u know what's on my mind !"

BOL: When words aren't enough

The suppressed cries; the boiling anger; the aggregation of frustration are no unknown variables in the lives of a Homo sapien. And if you belong to that economically and socially challenged class, these variables are like a parasitic leech that won't leave you nor would do any good. 

When I saw the movie Bol, I did not know how to react. I was speechless. On one hand I knew the "dark matter" like everybody else. On the other hand, I was completely shell shocked and wondered how rotten if it was true and happened to me. But again it was the dirty stark truth. It (well almost) was "Kahani Ghar Ghar ki" (Story of every household). There was nothing new about the story. Everybody knows and practices "racial and sexual discrimination" (on scale of 1-10) just like they know and sing "Twinkle twinkle little star". 

The protagonist at the end leaves the "audience" with a set of questions and mainly why isn't it a crime to give birth to a child when you can't afford to raise the child economically and socially. A very valid point. Why do people not understand that getting extra help on wages (Child labour is criminal act by the way) also means extra expenses? And if its not for wages but wait for male child (sex determination and abortion is against law, supposedly) like in the movie, then you are extremely atrocious.People out of their desperation to make it to the top of Maslow's pyramid of a developing entity or sheer madness are strangely blinded of the impeding disaster to themselves, their family and to the society at large. They fail to understand the basic law of nature, the basic law of life-its all loopedy -loop. In western countries especially the US, if it is found that parents are unable to keep their children in a happy and stable environment, the children are taken away from them and are sent for open adoption or foster care! 

I ask...How many laws and law keepers, reforms and reformists, civic lessons and social workers, articles and journalists, poems-songs and lyricists, movies and movie-makers et.al does it take to ring in the change? Are we those who simply applaud a certain someone for showing the ugly truth on paper and screen? Or are we those who in ourselves truly believe in flushing away the crap we and our homo sapien ancestors have been extruding till date? 

If all these were one thing, then fight against terrorism is another disgusting pie. Though this is not part of the movie BOL; terrorism in every sense is linked to discrimination by discrimination itself. The recent terror attacks in the country again point out the same issue .... Are we too easy a target? Why are we a target in the first place? Did we knowingly or unknowingly leave the wood and grass to dry and start an unwanted forest fire? Are we ready for a Phoenix act? And if yes, are we willing to volunteer and implement the solution ?

PS: I have purposely omitted the story of the movie, though you could find it anywhere on the net. However, I recommend you see the movie at least once. If you are one of those who are an adherent fan of Golmaal like movies and nothing else, you may feel a sprint of Emotional torture but again as I said it is the Ugly truth.